April 16th, 2012
Four years ago I made a choice. One year ago, I made a commitment. Funny that it has been this exact month for both of those decisions.
For some reason I have been looking back at my life; just observing and enjoying the adventure I have been walking. I find it is good at time to just take a look at your past but not intending to enter it. Just to look at the good things that you have done and the things that God has brought you through. Insane for me to ever thing of the walk I have been walking. Just walking and being obedient to what God wants me to do, its like I'm an insane woman! Well, if you really know me, I do pretty crazy/insane things because that's just who I am....
Sometimes when I look at the past choices I have made, I often wonder, "What would happen if I didn't chose to do that?" It can be a very dangerous question to think about and dive deep into but what would happen if?
I came across this verse the other day:
1 John 2:15-17
Do not love this world nor the things it offers you, for when you love the world, you do not have the love of the Father in you. For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the Father, but are from this world. And this world is fading away, along with everything the people crave. But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever. (NLT)
I then look at the "What if" questions in my life. I picture myself loving this world. It baffles my mind because I was caught up in worldly pleasures (and possibly still have to work in a few areas) but I look at my self now and see the changes.
What if I didn't choose God? What if I decided to give up? What if I wanted to walk my path? What if? What if? What if?
My love, my desire, my soul, my passion, my spirit, my mind, my eyes, my heart, my everything would be in love with this world. And to see my life loving this world would be as brittle as the wings of butterflies. I would break easy as stepping on a thin sheet of ice. My life - dark, my laughter - gone, my passion - dead. I feel as though I cannot express in words what my thoughts are now but I hope you understand.
When I look at this picture (the one above) I thank God for not giving up on me. I thank God for giving me the strength. I thank God for helping me and giving me the people that I need in my life. I thank God for always being there and providing for me. I thank God for being an amazing Father. I thank God for His love that He has shown and given me.
Why should we be wrapped up in this world and want all of the worldly pleasures when we have a God who is loving and giving? Why should we love this world when the love of God is so infinite?
What if... I chose God?
