This month is a very significant month for me this year. This time last year was the very time that I took what I had, packed my bags, and went on a jet plane. Not knowing if I’ll be back again. Well actually knowing that I will not be back again because God had a calling on my life. It was time for me to leave home and make a new home.
It amazes me of what God has done in my life in a year and quite frankly, He has done amazing things! When I first stepped in Teulon, I didn’t have my own place to live. No, I didn’t live in a box; I lived in a basement with a family who welcomed me with warm and comforting arms. I found a part-time job, which then gave me my own place to live. Even when I still didn’t have a lot of finances to get a lot of the things I needed, God kept on providing for me and took care of me with amazing love! I then had to step out in faith and quit my job 5 months later because it was a distraction, I wasn’t happy and I was miserable. Scariest thing I have ever done in my life but God proved to be there for me and provided an open door to two jobs! One of which got me my teaching papers and brought me into the schools and another which allowed me to work full-time for the summer!
But when I look at the past year, did I get everything right away? No! I wanted to have everything, to have my life in order, to have my plan under control but it didn’t work out the way I wanted it to. I had to play the waiting game.
There were so many things that I wanted. I wanted those things to make my life easy, to make my life happy but when I received those things, I wanted more!
A couple of days ago I was reminded to be thankful, which reminded me of a blog I wrote last year: We get so caught up in today’s new and better things that we forget to be thankful for what we have and to be thankful for what God has provided us with. We have to realize and remember that God is our provider and it is all in His timing.
It is so true! And as I sit here just wanting more, there is a reason I don’t have the things I want therefore, shouldn’t I be thankful?? Just stop and look at all you have – shouldn’t you be thankful for that? In the seasons of waiting – shouldn’t we press into God because maybe He wants more of us? Shouldn’t we look for God because maybe He is waiting for us?
There are many things that I don’t have in my life (like a HUGE TONKA TRUCK ;) ) but I am thankful. Even though I really really want it now, I am thankful because I know God is looking out for me and will give me what I need when I need it.
In those times of wanting and waiting, be thankful for what God has already blessed you with and cherish His giving! Seek Him because maybe He is waiting and wanting more of you.
