Well may as well grab a second cup cause I'm on vacation! Need to spoil myself sometime as I wait for a friend and feel inspiration to write. The same inspiration I had when I came here to write papers and to get my assignments done. When I needed a new setting and needed to just get further away and get exercise. Needing something different than Starbucks. Yes, I love little coffee/study places and my alone time right now!
Coming back to my "home grounds" is an interesting feeling. Every time I come home I have a weird feeling inside and expect things never change. But as time goes on things do change. When I go back and see the people I left, its like we never left. Just the type of person I am I guess. Whenever I leave or when a friend leaves me, we are still friends! We may not stay in contact as well but when we get together face to face, its like we never left each other. It's one of the things that I love about my friends. They never hold grudges about not staying in contact that well when we are apart.
Its been 2 years since I have actually visited Thunder Bay. I have come here and there, but hasn't been a time to actually stop and visit again. Coming back and reconnecting after 2 years - a lot has changed. To me it's crazy but at the same time feels right. It feels right for me to just visit. It feels right that I am not meant to be here. It feels right to move on in life and not be stuck in a place where I wanted to be.
When I first moved here - 6 years ago in September I was content and loved Thunder Bay - still do. As the years went by, I was actually feeling content to the point of actually staying in Thunder Bay for the rest of my life. But as I continued, God didn't want me to stay and having the obedience and adventure side I had, I wanted to go. Even though I am horrible with good-byes and get attached easily I knew it was right for me to go and I am glad that I did.
As I sit here in this coffee place, I remember the conversations and the relaxing/inspiration times I would have. As I drive around the city, I remember the memories and the grounds I stomped on. The places I lived, the places I adventured, the places where I had fun. These were the fun, memorable times of my life and looking back to the past allows me to play-back the videos of memories that flood my mind.
6 years ago, I started a new chapter and finished it within 4 years. I started another chapter and finished that within one year and again started another chapter not too long ago. I don't know when God will finish this new chapter but it makes me realize, when I look back, where He has brought me and am so happy that I took the courage to listen and obey Him. Even when things seemed crazy and scary, I know great things will happen.
Just like great things happened 6 years ago, 1 year ago and even a week ago! I feel as though when I come back to my "home grounds", I realize things change - myself included, but I also realize where God has brought me. I see the big picture and the lessons through those chapters. I see how God works through me in those chapters and how He has used me. It is an encouragement to me to continue, follow and pursue Him because theres going to be greater and better things to come. The past was what taught me, the future is what is to come and the present is the adventure.
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